I Remain Confident of This

Apple spice oatmeal + pumpkin chai latte + morning quiet time
The majority of the last week and a half was spent at the hospital with family. Such a range of emotions was felt over that time! Frustration, peace, sorrow, joy, weariness, thankfulness, worry...hope. God's presence was so tangible in a time when my family and I were in the throes of uncertainty. I am so thankful for the network of friends and family that covered us in prayer during that time and continue praying through the healing process that is ahead. Family came to town and friends came out of the woodwork with love, encouragement, prayer, and so many goodies. Muffins, chocolate, caramel apples, coffee, and more.

But the best thing of all: His presence. The burning in my chest at 3 a.m. telling me that He is with us and sees the situation better than we do. The peace in the midst of bad news that said, "Don't give up yet." And the good news that followed which the doctors just could not explain.
I meditated on Psalm 27 a lot during the week and clung to the last few verses. God is good not only in the next life but also in the present one and I'm thankful that we got to watch his goodness unfold over the course of the week. We're all home now, resting and recovering. The healing process is underway and, even if it's a long process, I'm trusting the Lord with it. He really does know what he's doing way better than we do.

Psalm 27
"The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked advance against me to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.
One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord.
Hear my voice when I call, Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, Lord, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, God my Savior.
Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.
Teach my your way, Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations. I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."

Steph xo

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